I have been arriving at many conclusions lately. One is that I think my drinking problem is related to AS. For many reasons.
It makes the awkwardness more bearable.
It makes it easier to express deep emotions.
It helps me to forget the stupid mistakes I have made. (Although it leads to just as many stupid mistakes).
It seems to make me feel more normal, to fit in socially.
Any other thoughts on this subject.
BTW, I've decided to stop drinking, and have to come up with other ways of coping, expressing, fitting in.