Yes, I think you do enjoy it. You like thinking you know the real truth when everyone else is swallowing the bullshit.
No I don't, as this knowledge is quite a burden on a person. I enjoy the research itself, but it strongly bothers me how hostile people react when I share my conclusions.
You see, I used to be similar to you, I used to follow all the crazy kooky ideas and conspiricy theories etc. I bought into all that crap until I realised it was preying on my hightened paranoia which is a part of my AS DX. After I gave it all away, I realised that I didn't miss it and I had more time to devote to things that were more worthwhile. Like doing shit that was for me.
First of all, I don't take anything for granted. I'm just as sceptical towards claims about UFOs or Yetis as I am towards mainstream statements.
Second, I enjoy the research itself as I already mentioned.
First you say this:
My views may be controversial, but I treat people with respect regardless of their political views, their religious views, their ethnic background, their sexual preference, etc.
Then you say this:
Sure I think that homosexuality is a perversity of nature
and this:
Sure I strongly object to Jewish culture
How are these two about treating people with respect?
For me, respect means treating someone like you would treat your best friend IN SPITE OF what you might think of their lifestyle, their background, etc.
You treat me with great disrespect, because you judge me on an individual based on my convictions, which makes you no better than those who abused Jews, Christians or any other group in the past that was persecuted for its convictions.
And please read some of my other posts from the time before you joined I2 before you again hint at my intolerance and whatnot. I've defended other groups of people against narrow-mindedness and intolerance, against ill-conceived attacks
And now are the one behaving in an intolerant and narrow-minded way, launching ill-conceived attacks against others. Don't you see that you are behaving exactly like the kind of people you dispise?
[...] from people very much like yourself
I've never mistreated a single human being or animal in my life. Respect for life is a very important value to me. You should really stop stereotyping me based on your prejudice about what nationalists and traditionalists are like.
Wasn't there a line that you quoted (and I'm paraphrasing), "they came for the communists but I remained silent because I was not a communist, ..."? Why is it that you cannot understand what that quote actually is about?
It is about decent people ignoring dissidents being victims of abuse, because they're not dissidents themselves. Jews, communists and socialists were to the Third Reich what Holocaust Revisionists, nationalists and traditionalists are to modern society today : an minority that's abused for standing up for what they believe in.
There is plenty of evidence proving the murder of millions of Jews and others during WWII. You choose to disregard that evidence.
You are the one disregading the evidence. I gave you a lot of arguments for why the official status quo does not make any sense and you did not even address half of them.