Fire Away....Metaphorically Speaking

[Soph]

Goodnight

I don't know what would make me stop. I don't think anything can really. She didn't want to be alone, and I think if we had been together IRL, I could have helped her, long-term. I really think she would have got better eventually. I know it would take way more than that to help her with her ED and BPD and stuff, but it would have been a start. She wouldn't have been so alone at least. And she would finally have known that she was lovable IRL

[Lucifer]

'ere, raskolnikovna, have you read nick cave's novel, "and the ass saw the angel"?  if so,. is it any good, and would you recommend it?

[Tristeza]

I am ashamed to admit that I have not read that book.  I feel like a total tool admitting this.  He's fucking brilliant, but for some reason this novel hasn't really tempted me.  I did see his movie The Proposition, and I thought it was fantastic.  He wrote the screenplay and did the music - it was excellent.  I would definitely recommend it.  Great acting by Ray Winstone, Guy Pearce, Emily Watson & Danny Huston.  Hard to beat that cast.

[Lucifer]

didn't know about that.  but then, i'm not the greatest filmgoer in the world.

ta.

[renaeden]

Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

[Tristeza]

What's sleep paralysis?   

Like when you're having a nightmare and you can't scream or wake yourself up, etc?  I've had lots of weird things happen when I'm sleeping.  I used to stop breathing and then wake up gasping for breath.  If something woke me up, I'd jump out of bed and land hard with both feet, completely awake (absolutely freaked my husband out for years).  Also used to sleep with my fists clenched - just stopped doing that in the past couple of years. 

So I have a weird sleep history.  Lately, I've been sleeping very light and waking up at the least little thing - thank God I don't jump up anymore, though.  I think the insomnia is hormone-related, as I'm getting to the pre-menopausal stage, oh joy.    

[Rabbit From Hell]

WAREZ MAH π ???

[Pyraxis]

I can't figure out why they'd want to pretend to be so tough.  I'm working my ass off to get less tough, and it's costing me a zillion bucks in therapy.

 

Because the most healthy state is a balance. It is also possible to be so far out on the helpless victim side of things that the working one's ass off and the zillion bucks in therapy go to bringing toughness out into the open.

[renaeden]

What's sleep paralysis?   

Like when you're having a nightmare and you can't scream or wake yourself up, etc? 

Sort of. It is like you are almost awake and you want to get up and move but you can't. I used to get it several times a night. I haven't had it happen for about a week now.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis

[Tristeza]

I can't figure out why they'd want to pretend to be so tough.  I'm working my ass off to get less tough, and it's costing me a zillion bucks in therapy.

 

Because the most healthy state is a balance. It is also possible to be so far out on the helpless victim side of things that the working one's ass off and the zillion bucks in therapy go to bringing toughness out into the open.

That seems to be more common in women, from what I've seen anyway.   

[Tristeza]

What's sleep paralysis?   

Like when you're having a nightmare and you can't scream or wake yourself up, etc? 

Sort of. It is like you are almost awake and you want to get up and move but you can't. I used to get it several times a night. I haven't had it happen for about a week now.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis

Yes, I get that fairly often.  It's annoying when I need to get up and wee, but just can't get awake enough to move.  Haven't wet the bed yet, though...so that's a good thing.   

[Pyraxis]

That seems to be more common in women, from what I've seen anyway.   

Agreed. Much as I don't like it and consider it shameful. I tend to get madly jealous of people in your position, but I know it's just a matter of perspective.

[Calandale]

That seems to be more common in women, from what I've seen anyway.   

Agreed. Much as I don't like it and consider it shameful. I tend to get madly jealous of people in your position, but I know it's just a matter of perspective.

You two could just roll over, you know. 

[Tristeza]

That seems to be more common in women, from what I've seen anyway.   

Agreed. Much as I don't like it and consider it shameful. I tend to get madly jealous of people in your position, but I know it's just a matter of perspective.

Well trust me, I'm sure I'm more jealous of women like you.  You have puh-lenty of other women to talk to about your position.  Hard for me to find other women to whom I can relate, so all my close friends are men.     That's not as cool as some would like to assume.

[Tristeza]

That seems to be more common in women, from what I've seen anyway.   

Agreed. Much as I don't like it and consider it shameful. I tend to get madly jealous of people in your position, but I know it's just a matter of perspective.

You two could just roll over, you know. 

Cal, go pick your butt.