Any recent good deeds to make up for your past

[Lucifer]

there is that.  and there's also the fact that i genuinely don't give a fuck, of course.    that sounds bad, but i mean that i usually think about things before i do them, so there's no point regretting things if you've thought the consequences through first, if you see what i mean.

i really am like granny weatherwax. 

[ozymandias]

i have nothing in my past i feel i need to make up for.  that sounds arrogant, but believe me, i'm harder on myself than i am on other people, and i have tried to live as impeccably as i know (according to my own code, obvoiusly.  )

QFT and Ditto.   

[ozymandias]

i have nothing in my past i feel i need to make up for.  that sounds arrogant, but believe me, i'm harder on myself than i am on other people, and i have tried to live as impeccably as i know (according to my own code, obvoiusly.  )

At first I interpreted this thread as being about so-called "Good Deeds" that may have gone wrong and the consequences.

The most out of character wrongs I have done in my past were from lack of impulse control. I acted or re-acted in ways that were not thought out well a few times.

Regrets from some of those times are still with me, when I am down. The ones that really bug me can not be reversed.

Also QFT and DITTO. 

[Pyraxis]

i have nothing in my past i feel i need to make up for.  that sounds arrogant, but believe me, i'm harder on myself than i am on other people, and i have tried to live as impeccably as i know (according to my own code, obvoiusly.  )

At first I interpreted this thread as being about so-called "Good Deeds" that may have gone wrong and the consequences.

The most out of character wrongs I have done in my past were from lack of impulse control. I acted or re-acted in ways that were not thought out well a few times.

Regrets from some of those times are still with me, when I am down. The ones that really bug me can not be reversed.

Also QFT and DITTO. 

How is that possible? The two are a contradiction. Either you have things you regret at times, or you don't.

[ozymandias]

i have nothing in my past i feel i need to make up for.  that sounds arrogant, but believe me, i'm harder on myself than i am on other people, and i have tried to live as impeccably as i know (according to my own code, obvoiusly.  )

At first I interpreted this thread as being about so-called "Good Deeds" that may have gone wrong and the consequences.

The most out of character wrongs I have done in my past were from lack of impulse control. I acted or re-acted in ways that were not thought out well a few times.

Regrets from some of those times are still with me, when I am down. The ones that really bug me can not be reversed.

Also QFT and DITTO. 

How is that possible? The two are a contradiction. Either you have things you regret at times, or you don't.

Trust me, you can be cruising along just fine and then, BAM, a little flicker of something triggers a memory of something stupid that I did or said and  "Presto" we have what I call a "cringe moment." 

Thats the best way I can describe it.  Human beings are all walking contradictions, or at least a big percentage are!

[Pyraxis]

That would be why I added the key phrase "at times".

[DirtDawg]

i have nothing in my past i feel i need to make up for.  that sounds arrogant, but believe me, i'm harder on myself than i am on other people, and i have tried to live as impeccably as i know (according to my own code, obvoiusly.  )

At first I interpreted this thread as being about so-called "Good Deeds" that may have gone wrong and the consequences.

The most out of character wrongs I have done in my past were from lack of impulse control. I acted or re-acted in ways that were not thought out well a few times.

Regrets from some of those times are still with me, when I am down. The ones that really bug me can not be reversed.

Also QFT and DITTO. 

How is that possible? The two are a contradiction. Either you have things you regret at times, or you don't.

Regrets can be kind of like dust bunny nests. No matter how well I think I have cleaned them out they always seem to come back. The things that come back again and again are things that are truly regrettable to me (like using one of my old cameras as a mace on one of the thieves to keep them from robbing me of my cameras - I really hurt that guy or breaking that guys ribs who ran me off the road and hit my car a couple of months ago.) I can never escape them. I can only resist the effects they have on me.

I am better able to resist when I keep from getting bored or depressed in general. That's what I meant by, "when I'm down."

[renaeden]

Trust me, you can be cruising along just fine and then, BAM, a little flicker of something triggers a memory of something stupid that I did or said and  "Presto" we have what I call a "cringe moment." 

I find it strange when this happens and I don't like the feeling of getting embarrassed and feeling awful about it all over again!

[ozymandias]

Trust me, you can be cruising along just fine and then, BAM, a little flicker of something triggers a memory of something stupid that I did or said and  "Presto" we have what I call a "cringe moment." 

I find it strange when this happens and I don't like the feeling of getting embarrassed and feeling awful about it all over again!

Agreed and DD did an apt analogy.  You think you have resolved or made peace with a past "Incident".  And like a dust bunny, it keeps occuring.  I really hate it, it's in the past, often years ago and yet I still cringe at the memory.   

[Tesla]

Trust me, you can be cruising along just fine and then, BAM, a little flicker of something triggers a memory of something stupid that I did or said and  "Presto" we have what I call a "cringe moment." 

I find it strange when this happens and I don't like the feeling of getting embarrassed and feeling awful about it all over again!

Agreed and DD did an apt analogy.  You think you have resolved or made peace with a past "Incident".  And like a dust bunny, it keeps occuring.  I really hate it, it's in the past, often years ago and yet I still cringe at the memory.   

I have one of those...  it's been probably 20 years, and I can still see it so clearly in my head.  It makes me sick whenever I think of it. 

[odeon]

I have a few of those. Every time I think of them I cringe. I know I can't do anything about them but I wish I would have acted differently.

[DirtDawg]

I have a few of those. Every time I think of them I cringe. I know I can't do anything about them but I wish I would have acted differently.

That is close to my point.

It doesn't matter how much energy you divert to resolve certain regrets, some of them never go away.

[Pyraxis]

I regret the fact that Alex Plank is still badly running a website. 

[odeon]

I regret the fact that Alex Plank is still badly running a website. 

But do you lose sleep over it?

[odeon]

I have a few of those. Every time I think of them I cringe. I know I can't do anything about them but I wish I would have acted differently.

That is close to my point.

It doesn't matter how much energy you divert to resolve certain regrets, some of them never go away.

Yes. I don't have many of them but the ones that I have aren't going anywhere.