thanks. unless these people regularly hang out at the library and the vivarium at the museum though, then i doubt i'm gonig to meet anyone lol
everyone my age just goes to clubs and bars and stuff. and they all have friends already. sucks to be me

there are loads of things i should or could have done. i know i should stop thinking it though because it cant bring her back. but if i had done them then she'd still be here. i have to live with that for the rest of my life now.

all i wanted to do was help her and make her happy and i couldn't even do that. i couldnt even do the one thing i needed to do to keep the person i love here and make her ok. if i cant even that then what use am i to anyone?

none i guess
oh well, emo rant over lol
merry fucking xmas everybody

theres alcohol downstairs, i might try and get drunk
i dont even like any of the alcohol downt here though
i wish my mum would buy drinks i like instead of crappy wine and stuff lol]]