thanks. unless these people regularly hang out at the library and the vivarium at the museum though, then i doubt i'm gonig to meet anyone lol
everyone my age just goes to clubs and bars and stuff. and they all have friends already. sucks to be me
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there are loads of things i should or could have done. i know i should stop thinking it though because it cant bring her back. but if i had done them then she'd still be here. i have to live with that for the rest of my life now.
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all i wanted to do was help her and make her happy and i couldn't even do that. i couldnt even do the one thing i needed to do to keep the person i love here and make her ok. if i cant even that then what use am i to anyone?
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none i guess
oh well, emo rant over lol
merry fucking xmas everybody
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theres alcohol downstairs, i might try and get drunk
i dont even like any of the alcohol downt here though
i wish my mum would buy drinks i like instead of crappy wine and stuff lol]]