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[Parts]

Meet better people in the museum anyway

[Peter]

but everyone always says that thye loved high school,

Really? Most that I've known HATED HS.

i should admit, i haven't actually asked anyone. this is just going by what i see in movies lol
they all seem to be having fun and going to parties and getting laid

That's something I like about this site.  There are plenty of people who're having just as crap a time as I am.

[Soph]

i usually go during the day (before/after lectures) so it's mostly families bringing their kids and schools bringing big groups of noisy 8 year olds, so no such luck with me   

although i think one of my lectures is taking us to the art gallery down the road soon

its right at the end of oxford rd which is where my university is, and i could walk down there in less than 20 mins i think, so maybe that gives me one more place i can go soon. you have to pay to get in though, the museum is free, which is one of the reasons i like it so much 

[Soph]

but everyone always says that thye loved high school,

Really? Most that I've known HATED HS.

i should admit, i haven't actually asked anyone. this is just going by what i see in movies lol
they all seem to be having fun and going to parties and getting laid

That's something I like about this site.  There are plenty of people who're having just as crap a time as I am.

i am quite possibly one of the saddest people on the planet. so however crap things get, you can rest assured you're not as fucked as i am 

[Parts]

but everyone always says that thye loved high school,

Really? Most that I've known HATED HS.

i should admit, i haven't actually asked anyone. this is just going by what i see in movies lol
they all seem to be having fun and going to parties and getting laid

That's something I like about this site.  There are plenty of people who're having just as crap a time as I am.

i am quite possibly one of the saddest people on the planet. so however crap things get, you can rest assured you're not as fucked as i am 

I wish you weren't your young, smart  and beautiful and have your whole life ahead of you If there is anything I can help you with I will

[Soph]

thanks. i think im permenantly fucked up now 
i was starting to get bad just before sophie died, then that hit me and i screwed up. last year i really really liked going to uni. for the first time since i was a kid i actually liked school. now it's all different. i think i'm just too much of a messed up person  to get through normally

[Parts]

Is their anybody close to you or in you family you can get help from? I have had some really rough times myself and somehow made it though even still do sometimes.  Things will work out

[Soph]

my family know sometthing is wrong (or at least they did, they might think im ok now), but i dont think theyd understand because sophie lived so far away. people IRL don't seem to realise  she was still my friend.

i guess i have no choice but to get through it, bad or good. it will probably always be bad though whether i get out the other end or not

[Soph]

and i dunno wtf im talking about either lol

[Parts]

I think they will understand if you talk to them they will see it really bothers you and you need someone close to talk to

[Calandale]

i should admit, i haven't actually asked anyone. this is just going by what i see in movies lol
they all seem to be having fun and going to parties and getting laid

Hell, it's a LOT of fun, for a lot of people.
Mostly those without AS.

i don't know what anymore. i mean i know it'[s history, but whenever i try and think about it in terms of the future i just think about sophie and lose all motivation. im hoping this is temporary, it's been two months today (boxing day) that i found out she died. 2 months, 2 days since it happpened. maybe this will change in a while?

Maybe. I don't really know. I've not recovered from
my own loss, which was several years ago. But, I had
much better turn around times (not so small as 2 mos.)
with prior losses.

[Soph]

i probably should have told someone when it first happened. god i was  fucked that week. i really am surprised i didnt end up in hospital or something. im glad i didnt though, theyd have worked out i was suicidal then and it would have jut made things worse i think. my mum says id get diagnosed with an eating disorder as well (i dont have one), and i DEFINITELY dont want that

i think if i told someone exactly whats been going on, id end up back at the doctors and forced into counseling or something, and counseling doesnt work for me i dont think

[Soph]

i should admit, i haven't actually asked anyone. this is just going by what i see in movies lol
they all seem to be having fun and going to parties and getting laid

Hell, it's a LOT of fun, for a lot of people.
Mostly those without AS.

i don't know what anymore. i mean i know it'[s history, but whenever i try and think about it in terms of the future i just think about sophie and lose all motivation. im hoping this is temporary, it's been two months today (boxing day) that i found out she died. 2 months, 2 days since it happpened. maybe this will change in a while?

Maybe. I don't really know. I've not recovered from
my own loss, which was several years ago. But, I had
much better turn around times (not so small as 2 mos.)
with prior losses.

i dont seem to have got very far really in 2 months. so i dunno how lnog its gonna take. i tried forcing it, but that just makes me worse, but then i NEED to stop being so fucked up about it or i will mess up uni. im fucked either way

[Soph]

oh god ive turned this into a Fix Soph thread, sorry 

merry xmas everyone!

[Calandale]

Everyone is different, and I've never had
something so close cut down so early, but
EVERY time that I recovered, it was in finding
someone new.