yeah i'd only have gone for a week or 2 weeks properly. if i wanted to stop her completely i'd have tp have gone there permanently. i'd have had to give up uni and leave my family and flo and enroll at some school in san francisco or get a job there or something. i'd miss my family then though.
and i wouldn't have been able to look after her well enough i don't think. i can't even look after myself properly. i still wish i had though. but thinking that will just fuck me up forever, so maybe i need to stop