You are up my ass enough, and I don't like it. Maybe you can be like my mom, manic and constantly stigmatizing me, almost up my ass. I don't need to be taken care of in the way she thinks. She needs to take care of herself, then she will take care of me. If meds are the only that that works, so be it, as long as she don't push me. I can take it, but it would be nice to have a mom who loves you.