i ate a two pickles and fish rice thing and drank wine. i spent two hours in the fucken shower. i hate food. i hate everything about it pretty much. it just grosses me out. i HATE FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it turns into something even more disgusting whether you puke or digest and even before eating it is scary. i just want to stop eating for good. please tell me i can do this somehow. are there juice diets that can sustain life? otherwise i might kill myself. i am so fucking tired of this bullshit. i really am. why am i so mentally ill? i'd trade OCD for cancer i really would. well depends what kinda cancer. breast cancer sure. but there's no breast cancer for me, not unless it comes in addition.
i'm tired of food, i'm tired of booze. i am tired. i just want to sleep. i'm gonna starve myself to death ffs. i don't care anymore. i don't believe in death from starvation anyway. i'll live forever.
oh and if someone calls me a fuckin emo i will rip their heart out and eat it. oh wait, i won't eat it. i will toss it in the bin.