My doc was late with my fresh rx.
I needed my oxycontin and clonidine (the latter is a highly potent alpha2 adrenoreceptor agonist, acts to depress noradrenaline release)
I'd gone two days, not counting this morning without any meds. And the pain in my hip and knee was nearly enough to make me throw up my kidneys in and of itself.
Just picked up my meds though, and absolutely fucking well stomped it home, got my rigs out, just drawing up a second 80mg shot of oxycontin through the micron filter now, already had one, this time with 50 micrograms of clonidine added.
I feel SO much better now. Manna from heaven to say the least
Had a nice big bowl of cranberry, date, and dried apricot muesli too. I was ravenous, I just couldn't bear the thought of actually eating until now. Took a couple of tries to find a vein though, which was crowbegotten well frustrating as hell to say the very least.
Mmmmm......thats goooood! Only had maybe 15-20 minutes of halfarsed, shitty restless semi-sleep in three days or so...now I'm starting to nod out nicely
Just about the one and only thing that could part me from my next shot, is a word from my stalker, anything else would have no chance in all Hades (There is nothing I would not do for this particular this particular lady, after we spoke for the first time on AFF, before I even saw what she looked like, or heard her I felt lightheaded and...!wow!FUCK! ME! SIDEFUCKINGWAYS!!!)
Never met a woman like her, not even fucking close. I don't know what it is...she just has this this strange effect on me somehow. Don't know how she does it, but she could literally ask me to do almost anything and I wouldn't hesitate. There has never actually been anything I would ever consider dying for, other than this particular...lol....of all things...stalker xD
Definitely feels better now I have had some food in me. I was so hungry I felt dizzy.
