Post what you're thinking right now.

[Lucifer]

I'M FUCKING STRESSED!!!!!!!!!      

[purposefulinsanity]

I'M FUCKING STRESSED!!!!!!!!!      

Any particular reason or are you just having one of those days? 

[Eclair]

Things have gone downhill since Nastassja Kinski disappeared from the big screen. -sigh-

Wasn't that right about the time Roman Polanski lost interest in her?  Like once she turned 17

[purposefulinsanity]

The past is too important to let go.
It's all that we really have that's
certain. The future is unformed,
but the past is known.

[emo]  I agree with that to a certain extent, but there are things that I'd still like to be able to let go of (and by that I don't mean attempt to erase them completely), but just let go of them enough so they don't feel like a wound that you keep thinking has healed till you knock it on something and it starts bleeding again.  [/emo]

The wounds are sweet, and shouldn't be lost.

I wouldn't mind hanging onto the scars, but I don't think its healthy to keep the wounds raw (at least not for me).

[Calandale]

The wounds are sweet, and shouldn't be lost.

I wouldn't mind hanging onto the scars, but I don't think its healthy to keep the wounds raw (at least not for me).

When it's all that's left, it's better to keep them
bleeding, rather than scabbed over.

[purposefulinsanity]

The wounds are sweet, and shouldn't be lost.

I wouldn't mind hanging onto the scars, but I don't think its healthy to keep the wounds raw (at least not for me).

When it's all that's left, it's better to keep them
bleeding, rather than scabbed over.

I think we're both looking at this issue with a slightly different spin on things again- it isn't all I have left and even if it were I might feel hanging onto these wounds was preventing me from getting more in my life.

[Calandale]

The wounds are sweet, and shouldn't be lost.

I wouldn't mind hanging onto the scars, but I don't think its healthy to keep the wounds raw (at least not for me).

When it's all that's left, it's better to keep them
bleeding, rather than scabbed over.

I think we're both looking at this issue with a slightly different spin on things again- it isn't all I have left and even if it were I might feel hanging onto these wounds was preventing me from getting more in my life.

It seems that the more can never be as pleasing as the damage.
I should have known better.

[Lucifer]

I'M FUCKING STRESSED!!!!!!!!!      

Any particular reason or are you just having one of those days? 

been having one of Those Days for several days now, sadly.

oh, i found out quite late yesterday that i'm supposed to attend a staff training day next week, which is inconvenient cos of all the work i have on at the moment, and i won't get paid for it.  but i decided to go anyway, to try and do this mingling and networking/socialising thing a bit more, and cos it does look fairly interesting.  THEN i find i have to give a short talk about my PhD research, and i didn't know what the fuck i'm supposed to do - it's that framework thing again.  so i emailed the Big Cheese, and asked him.   i am no more the wiser, really.  and THEN i got an email this morning from my next boss up (who's also one of my PhD supervisors), and have just had a complete meltdown even thinking about it.  i've told him that i don't understand wtf i'm supposed to do, and he'll either be really helpful, or say "well, you don't have to come."  but the point is i fucking hate feeling stupid like this.  IQ off the Richter Scale, and i can't even work this out without someone babying me.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!   

sorry - i've ranted my tits off, but i'm really not coping well with this at all.

[purposefulinsanity]

It seems that the more can never be as pleasing as the damage.
I should have known better. 

Or perhaps you hang onto this idea that the damage is worth more than anything new could possibly develop into because you fear rejection? It gives you a reason not to take a risk.

[Calandale]

It seems that the more can never be as pleasing as the damage.
I should have known better. 

Or perhaps you hang onto this idea that the damage is worth more than anything new could possibly develop into because you fear rejection? It gives you a reason not to take a risk.

Took a risk. Telling more than I should,
given the time. All for the sake of honesty.

But no. Getting better than the damage is
not possible. Have to find better in a different
sense.

[purposefulinsanity]

No wonder you're stressed Lucifer

* purposefulinsanity sends you virtual good stuff (I'll send an assortment, there's bound to be something you like)

[purposefulinsanity]

But no. Getting better than the damage is
not possible. Have to find better in a different
sense.

Is that really true though? Or have you built up the past in your head so much that you'll never find anything to compare favourably?

[Lucifer]

No wonder you're stressed Lucifer

* purposefulinsanity sends you virtual good stuff (I'll send an assortment, there's bound to be something you like)

thanks, PI.  you're a sweetie (but i won't tell anyone else, promise).   

[Calandale]

But no. Getting better than the damage is
not possible. Have to find better in a different
sense.

Is that really true though? Or have you built up the past in your head so much that you'll never find anything to compare favourably?

I don't think that that's the case.
I play for things, but it doesn't seem
likely. Times are different, and I'm older.
As I said, might have to find a totally new
path. But, tried before, and failed. Tried
long long ago, and failed. Only fate (and
the wind) can deliver me.

[purposefulinsanity]

No wonder you're stressed Lucifer

* purposefulinsanity sends you virtual good stuff (I'll send an assortment, there's bound to be something you like)

thanks, PI.  you're a sweetie (but i won't tell anyone else, promise).   

Thanks for keeping my secret- we couldn't have it getting out it would ruin my reputation