As far as MeiLi is concerned, I am perfectionist, so I might not be good enough. I like to stack women on my shelves with my girlfriend on top. As long as I try my best then there is no point in getting bent out of shape, and I will have Jessica in the end. My scars make me a bit self conscienous, but again I do my best with those applying anything I have at my disposal. I don't have any silicon gel, but I have ocean potion which has tons of herbs in it. Burdock root for one thing has lots of slica in it, which is good for healing scars. I wish you guys could have seen that prom picture, best pic I have seen yet, and Its much better than her other ones. I wish we were married, because I would just fuck the shit out of her after. That red dress looks so nice on her. Her other pictures are alright though. Right now I feel good enough where I like smiling, and I could sing a little to.