Gus please. you're not a bad person. your mom doesn't know shit. moms are mostly wrong.
i've treated my mom badly, yelled at her. you don't think i feel like dying for that alone? but it would hurt her more if i died. i feel awful cuz of the shit i've done, i feel like i shouldn't have been born, like the world would be better if i had never been in it. but i can't turn back time and as long as i'm here i might as well do my best to be here.
i wish i could show you you are not a bad person and that you are wanted in this life.