Carla, let me explain something to you, when we first talked I was nervous. I am much better at coping now a days. You can't social for beans, so you were not helping. I ask Jessica questions, but she usually won't answer me. I know a few things and that is it, but the things are want are her feelings. I want her to talk to me if she having a problem, I am really good at making advice. I told her a few times I think your highly fuctional person, and I want to f u c k your ass. I can get the same mind altering affects as you call them from what I am imaging. I have seen myself become very hyper sometimes from that alone.
I am wondering maybe that the ginseng intolerance I so find maybe something else. I notice if I meditate a few hundred times, just for the f u c k of it, I get lots of energy the next day. If I stop, that would f u c k me up, I would become what I was. I would not, its feels good. I am not making comments to be dxed, I am showing you shit. Intorerance in addition maybe. Seeing that I am incontroll went along way into helping with my mood stability.
Tell you the truth, I am doing so well coping, my focus is on my mom. I did something that messed my life up because I am worried about her. She is all that I have left right now, because everyone else sucks. My bro is treating me normal, because I stoped being a disabled wank. I would not go near my sister, beating up my mom and all. Jessica is driving me nuts to, its not being annoyed, its being upset for her. So I fight this by teaching my mom stuff about how to cope. The docs don't seem to be doing it, or she is not listening because meds aren't not enough for her now. I am f u c k n pissed at them, I wanna go take a f u c k n jog down there and beat the flying f u c k out of them. The workers that come for my mom come at wrong times, and she is gets pissed. I had them to at one time, but I basically told em to f u c k off. Mom is trying to get them back, but I asked her nicely to leave me alone, a few times. I bet I could do better than those f u c k ed up workers.
