I often used to dream of being stupider so I wouldn't have to be so aware of how much I miss even though I am aware of it.
I feel that awareness is different. I am very aware of what I
don't know. Yes being less self-aware sometimes would be a relief. When I was younger I had moments of clarity, where I could learn. I don't get those moments anymore.
Average joe has a simple life, lets put it that way. All he needs is a reasonable job, a home, maybe a wife and kids, and he is fulfilled and happy.
Life is more complicated for people than you think. It is difficult to get those things.
I can remember loads of bad stuff I have done because it is on my conscience, those memories are automatically in the long-term memory file. Things that people have done to me, those are just events.