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Also, i have had differences with Calandale, and he is a rapist, even so i wouldn't say i disliked him.
I agree with McFonzy, i dont dislike anyone either.
Quote from: Björk on August 15, 2007, 05:39:50 PMthank you Calandale. i've had a fear thing with rape for some time and anything rape related caused a panic reaction in me. someone mentioning it online... and i have a loathing toward rapists. just shut down and hate them, that's it. you've helped me see some grey shades in this. not that it excuses what you did but i somehow find this fascinating.i read your links but i still don't know what exactly happened.It's complicated. The short side, we were together, fuckingregularly. She managed to build things up and we both ignoredthe signs of violence which were building up. All surrounding thefact that we were supposed to become a couple, and I dislikedher - maybe even hated. When the night actually came, the thingshe had been saying she would unleash from me came out.It wasn't what she expected. But, from that point, our relationship became one of abuse. Maybe itwas earlier. It was hideous, in many ways. But there are things a missabout it. Scares the shit out of me.
thank you Calandale. i've had a fear thing with rape for some time and anything rape related caused a panic reaction in me. someone mentioning it online... and i have a loathing toward rapists. just shut down and hate them, that's it. you've helped me see some grey shades in this. not that it excuses what you did but i somehow find this fascinating.i read your links but i still don't know what exactly happened.
Quote from: KosmoHilton on August 15, 2007, 06:04:30 PMI agree with McFonzy, i dont dislike anyone either. nor i. i can't seem to do "medium". i either really like someone, loathe them, or their existence doesn't impinge on my consciousness at all, when they're not directly in front of me.
Quote from: Lucifer on August 15, 2007, 06:08:26 PMQuote from: KosmoHilton on August 15, 2007, 06:04:30 PMI agree with McFonzy, i dont dislike anyone either. nor i. i can't seem to do "medium". i either really like someone, loathe them, or their existence doesn't impinge on my consciousness at all, when they're not directly in front of me.Isnt loathe just really intense dislike for someone though?
Quote from: KosmoHilton on August 15, 2007, 06:04:30 PMAlso, i have had differences with Calandale, and he is a rapist, even so i wouldn't say i disliked him.I always thought we rather got along well.Didn't quite get what happened to changeyour mind at some point. I THINK it was about when you started tryingto get someone to make you a mod over at WP.
have you had P.I. since? or did it scare you off it?
Quote from: Hardon on August 15, 2007, 06:11:11 PMQuote from: Lucifer on August 15, 2007, 06:08:26 PMQuote from: KosmoHilton on August 15, 2007, 06:04:30 PMI agree with McFonzy, i dont dislike anyone either. nor i. i can't seem to do "medium". i either really like someone, loathe them, or their existence doesn't impinge on my consciousness at all, when they're not directly in front of me.Isnt loathe just really intense dislike for someone though? what's your point, little man tate?
Yes that was it. My campaign to become a WPmod was a complete failure and i blamed you for it all.Luckily, i have seen the error of my ways.
I think I am a control freak, but a passive-aggressive one.It's something I try to fight though, so it's hard to explainin terms of actions. But my desires are towards total dominance.I go berserk now and then. Like I said, only happened once in thelast 15 yrs (that I remember). But, it scares me (and sometimesis attractive in a sick sort of way) to be back in the kind of relationthat I had with my psycho ex. As our situation was winding down,I was terrified that I should never be with anyone again, for fear oflosing control, and becoming abusive with anyone. Now I know thatI don't have to be, but I'm still not sure that I could avoid someonethat I knew was a bad fit for me that way.
Quote from: KosmoHilton on August 15, 2007, 06:14:49 PMYes that was it. My campaign to become a WPmod was a complete failure and i blamed you for it all.Luckily, i have seen the error of my ways.Odd. That's not how I'd have constructed it.Actually, seems to me that you had stoppedbeing quite so loving and cuddly a bit BEFOREyour attempt.
Odd. Loving and cuddly was something i never realised i started being.
Oh, hang on, you are being sarcastic.
So long as you are posting on forums, then at least you are not 'out-there' raping people.