I've had a case of who gives a fuck for a while now. Things were better when forum politics were still fascinating, when I'd only heard Cal once, when I thought more people wanted to use this place to fight, when Lucifer posted more of substance than sex banter (or maybe that was my imagination), when people found me more interesting (it's all about meeee :-P ), and when less of the cool people were apathetic.
The new influx of people is good though.