I am thinking about doing that but I am also afraid I might not be on the spectrum at all and I am just crazy. It took me a few years for me to accept the "I had AS" but if I found out I wasn't anywhere on the spectrum, it be hard for me to accept the fact I don't have it. I know the possibility I might not be on it and maybe I am an NT with lot of the traits. Plus I don't know my whole childhood and everything I did. I only know some things from what I have been told. Heck I didn't even know my food had to be served to me in a certain way and it had to be in a certain spot on the plate and served to me in a certain order or I'd refuse to eat and I had to take a certain step in every room until I read that in my medical records from 1987. I also read I was very good with puzzles and my interest with music and the ritual behaviors I had and I also read my play skills were below the age level. Does hearing loss cause all that behavior? The food thing and taking certain steps in every room sounded OCD to me.
I don't know if my thinking patterns change but I do know when I am not stressed out and depending on my mood, I can do abstract thinking. My mother also said I don’t have AS when things are going my way and things are going the way I’m expecting it.
When I’m with family and they decide to do something, I put on the “Don’t care†thing meaning I don’t care what they do because at least it gets me out of the house or out of our condo or campground, depending where we’re at.
But I have been told from other members if I were an NT, I would have gotten over my behavior a long time ago.