I understand that, and it has something to do with truama. I don;t think I should go into it, because it might give some people the wrong idea. Just know I want to fuck a woman. In fact I get nervous when a gay person comes near me, because of something bad that happened. They touched me when they were drunk. I was not aurosed in anyway, infact I was horrorfied, and could not react. He said " You did not like that?" I said no. The next time I see the guy he is dead meat. I just am starting to get over mental health issues, and I will react violently next time. I will choke slam there bitch ass if they try again. So if somebody did not understand, please tell me now. I don;t want anymore gay jokes, its triggering that shit. Just stop with the joking, and ask me to explain this if you don;t get it.