I have never known a person who I saw as exactly the kind of person I want to reach up and try to become.? I've always figured what a role model was is like a future version of me but i can't quite become that version because it is so great.? And I never knew any person which I thought was so perfect in every way that I wanted to try to become them.
There have been many many people who I admired in certain ways, and I tried to become more like them in those ways.
Hannibal lecter is the first one.? He's like a sociopath, but methodical, not impulsive.? And he seems to have a thing for kindness(implied by him having a thing against rudeness).? I like people who treat social rules like the arbitrary bullshit they are, but still want to be kind.
I admire any person who has a goal and will do whatever they can in a effecient and effective manner to achieve that goal no matter what.?
So I admire terminators.? All 3 models that I know about.
I also admire George Carlin in a lot of ways.? He is playful and weird, thinks about odd things.? He is also evil in a lot of fun, realistic ways.? Perverted, violent, dark sense of humor, but okay and at peace with the pointlessness of life.? He also is fantastic at creating comedic bits that are funny and/or intelligent, dark, and rhythmically pleasing.? And he creates them with a brilliant combination of maturity and vulgarity.? In his old age he has done a lot of rage filled humor, as opposed to his early "ain't it weird" humor.? Which i'm not sure I really like, but i know i don't not like it.? Also his most recent comedy hour sucked horribly, which may mean he is losing his edge, but i'm going to assume it was because it was like 3 weeks after 9/11 and he needed to totally fuck up his bits because he is really big on counter culture.? And he knew that wouldn't fly.
I admire Kenshin from the anime.? Who is humble and skilled and carries overwhelming mental scars and is the fights only when he must type of hero.? He is also an agility over strength type.
I admire Guts from the anime Berserk, because he is a fount of power that will never ever stop in his quest to survive and defeat those who have wronged him(and believe me, they wronged him) and save those that are important to him.? His battle is best described in the word: heroic.
I can't tell buddism, hinduism, or taoism apart(i forget which one is which) but one of them has a founder which I admire greatly.
One of my psychology teachers, Dennis Underwood, is a poster boy for perserverence.? He can't write(learning disability), they told him he was retarded, he dictated his papers and has PHDs now.? He has asthma(real bad), when he was young they told him he was never going to be as strong as the other little boys and girls, he runs marathons.? He is 60 years old, and I swear to god he looks 40.? He fought in some war, refused to fire his gun, he actually stood up and yelled to get shot and his sargent or whatever grappled him and threw him down.? They put him in charge of resupplying, he was excellent at that.? He has told us stories about how much ass he can kick.? But he is a funny, and playful type.? He is also very friendly with girls, he has expressed that he makes friends better with girls than guys.? He has terrible stage fright(yet teaches child psychology).? He is a mormon, and a father of 3.? He is an excellent teacher, seriously.? Best one i've ever seen.(And i keep track of that shit.)? He is also a skilled therapist(I could tell by how he treated my questions, seriously, he never responded to anything I said in a way that didnt make me feel better or not key me to continue.)? I admire a lot about him.
Can't think of anybody else at the moment.
My hobbies besides the internet include reading, writing(a bunch of different shit), watching movies(with and without crying), ranting, learning ANYTHING, petting my kitty, talking to myself, watching anime, roleplaying(we're talkin' pen and paper kind here), sleeping, eating, getting drunk/stoned(been letting up recently, need to confirm non-addiction) and masturbating(although i've been indulging in that hobby disturbingly infrequent lately and unbecoming of my pride of being a hedonistic pervert.)
And my favorite anime is probably the animatrix, the second ren.? And totally because of its message about robots becoming sentient(and not just matrix fanboy-dom) and humans being inhuman, i really identify with any story where the protagonist is inhuman.? But Lain and FLCL come in close second.
