ask soph anyfuckingthing

[Soph]

Probably 

I think that's the one good thing I have done with my life. And even that only bought us 6 months. I'm quite pathetic compared to most people
If I could, I would do more though

[Tristeza]

Well, don't think in terms of comparing yourself to others.  Most people are fucked up in ways you can only imagine.  And don't think in terms of buying time with her, etc.  She made her own decision - you know that.  You don't have to feel guilty about admitting that.  If you do, you'll be able to feel better.

[The_P]

Probably 

I think that's the one good thing I have done with my life. And even that only bought us 6 months. I'm quite pathetic compared to most people
If I could, I would do more though

You're not fucked up, nor are you pathetic.

[Soph]

She made her own decision, but only because she felt she had no other way out
If I had done it when she said, she would still be here now, or at least would have been here for longer, and I could have helped her get better
She was lonely and I made her stay alone and do it on her own when sh would have been scared

[Soph]

Probably 

I think that's the one good thing I have done with my life. And even that only bought us 6 months. I'm quite pathetic compared to most people
If I could, I would do more though

You're not fucked up, nor are you pathetic.

I'm trying to get less fucked up, so hopefully that will be true soon lol
I'm definitely pathetic though - compared to most people anyway
I'm trying to get less pathetic as well though

[Soph]

Some support work person who works with people with autism and AS is coming round tomorrow
Bit scary, but she knows my NAS person so I think it will be ok

[Tristeza]

Good luck with that meeting.  I hope you'll get to a point where you can go out more.  It really would help your spirits, I think.

[Soph]

Yes i would like to get drunk
All my problems would be tolerable if I had alcohol every night
None of the drugs I've tried will work, counseling didn't work even though I tried it for ages when I didn't like it, nothing I've tried has worked since I got my DX. So even though I have made a lot of progress last year, it's all been on my own really so there's only so much I can do. I think I need drugs for my OCD too

tbh I wish I could just get pissed every night and put up with it
It's fucking messed up when you try really hard for  ages and then something happens and it all goes to shit anyway

[Calandale]

She made her own decision, but only because she felt she had no other way out
If I had done it when she said, she would still be here now, or at least would have been here for longer, and I could have helped her get better
She was lonely and I made her stay alone and do it on her own when sh would have been scared

You're forgetting how much
she wanted to be with Michael.

[Soph]

That wasn't all it was though. I'm not forgetting anything. She'd tried to do it before. She tried to do it in Washington.

[Calandale]

I know. But I don't think she could've
gone through with it, without that added
piece. Hell, none of us thought she would,
anyhow. Fucking wishful thinking.

[Soph]

It doesn't change the fact that if I'd done things differently, it woul d never have happened

[Calandale]

Stop it. You know ONE outcome.
You don't know what would change.

There may have been no solution.

[Soph]

I know that was the one outcome because of everything that happened
If it had happened differently,. it would have been another outcome

[Calandale]

Sure. But you only get one.
And you did what you thought best.
So did I.