Yeah I hate getting loads of water in my ears
I've started cleaning them with a tissue after my shower lately, so I'll just continue doing that then
but you know that it's not an actual worry about hygiene that's driving you to shower as much as you do.
This is why it's so confusing. People tell me I'll be able to fix it by going to the toilet without getting a shower or doing something dirty but normal, so that I can see that nothing terrible happens because of it. But I'm not stupid lol, I know I'm not goinna die or anything. It's just the thought of it. It
feels dirty. I know it's not logical or anything. But the whole thing where people with OCD go and do dirty things and realise it's not that bad wouldn't work for me I don't think - because even though I wouldn't suddenly be struck down with bubonic plague, the feeling would still be there regardless. Does that make any sense? Sometimes I think it's not actually OCD, it's some other thing. But OCD is the closest I can get. Maybe it is OCD but it's just complicated by the AS or something.
Anyway hopefully it will gradually get easier as I get older.