I can't post a pic about my obession, for obvious reasons. I hope you people would have got that when I said obession, it was a joke, that is not all I think about nor do I get anxiety from not doing it. My grandmother mattered alot to me, and I got tears thinking about her death after I left, as I halted any show of that kind of emotion infront of her. When I was in front of her,t he tears came, but they went a way so fast it was not even funny.