Because I could care fuckn less what a word filter is. It would only bring me a laugh for a short time, unlike watching your behavior. I am still teasing you. I noticed when I am hyper, I make more errors before correcting. My therapist actually said to slow down when I am typing, and that concurs with what I am thinking the problem is. Making small errors is not nearly as bad as AS confusion, that must really suck. The only way I would feel any distress for that is to pay attention to who I caused it stress to. I don't feel distress if I make an error otherwise, even though I am sorta of a perfectionist. Its not so much now that I am calmn person.
* AllDayGlowRandy cares less what TJ is saying about AS. You really are not helping me, unless your helping yourself. I am just joking with you to, your really not a bad person. I don't embarass myself, I try not to let things bother me. Your just like my mom, you don't really know me, and you make all these assumptions about my behavior. Actually embarassment is one of the least of my problems, more or less when I was my uglier younger self, but not really now. Mom and her bs probably precipatated most of that, she fuckn drove me cra
zy, including her both her xs. Its was kind of annoying for her to follow me around trying to help me because she thinks I have a disability. Again, you could help me by handing over some of that god damn money that she is geting for her mother's death so I can do something useful with it, and SHE CAN HELP HERSELF. My grandmother and I had a good bond, me sometimes spending a weekend at her house doing alot of labor for free. I rarely talk to my mom about my emotions, because she used to annoy the fuck out of me, and now I just handle them by myself, without meds or a clinical socialworker. She would make assumptions at times about what I was feeling and handle it all wrong.
I did meditate while I was in the shower and that helps, but it can spur hyperactivity. I can get energy to do things when I have not ate in for a long time, makes impulses vanish, allows the words to flow out of my mouth, (with no I can socialize for beans) brings tears to my eyes etc.
It has, and then it looks like I did an AS thing. I know who I hurt, it just cuts me off before I can fix something.
I did try something because I wanted to help my stroke bound grandmother get well. I touched her, imagined us both getting this healing energy come out of our bodies (I was not in the mood to deal with my mom mysel), and she wanted a little food. She ate some rice pudding, and that was thing last thing she ate, through her mouth that was food, before she died. Her fever broke that day also, but then when I did not do it, it came back.
