Okay. To disambiguate then, by impossible I mean that
simply living by magic and ignoring the supposed hard
truths of the world, things went ok. Every time that
I've tried to do something however, it's turned out
a royal failure.
No, that's a lie. Every time I've tried to do something
for me? Hell, I don't know. But, just trusting to fate
seemed to work so well for a while (other than being
miserable with worry sometimes - is it still trusting, when
you are just paralyzed?), and trying to actively change
my situation has been, as far as I can judge, a failure
nearly every time I try.
I should have kept my stance that that which is worth
having comes freely, and that which requires work ain't
worth it.
phobia.
