You write in that funny pattern on purpose?
No, it just happens accidentally. Of course it's on purpose.
No real meaning, I just like shaping text sometimes.
Just don't try and change everything all at once. It leads to overload. I've had experience with that.
Not everything, but the shifts are like night and day for me. One of the
reasons that I suspect I'm bi-polar. Don't want to take drugs for it, because
I'm afraid I'll lose something important.
Now you know my frustration with Aspie_for_the_Lord.
He was miserable because his church told him he couldn't marry outside of it and he didn't have the good sense to leave it.
He couldn't see past the fact that it was he who made the descision to stay there. He thought that "God" had told him to be in that church.
Fucking delusional people!!!
I agree that his whining is ridiculous. BUT, I think he should have every right
to his delusions. I just wish that he's accept it all as some sort of sign that
he's not meant to have a relationship with either his church or a human
woman, and get it over with. Then, whatever happened he'd be satisfied.
I'm torn whether I want to follow the real world (which all my feelings say
not to) or carve out my own. Either way though, I won't get anywhere
if I just stand in indecision. So, for now, I'm taking steps to keep from
screwing my supposedly real existence, and the energy that I'm getting
off of working is actually making it easier to move in other directions, if
I so choose. Wallowing in self-pity doesn't do any good, but sometimes
it's hard for me to pull out of these funks.
phobia.