My policy in life is that personal happiness is the most important thing. And I don't let anyone influence this belief. Now you aren't me. You might value something more than your own happiness, and you may be willing to let others decide how you should feel. But i think that if in order to be happy you need to kill yourself, I wont begrudge you that decision, and I wont think any less of you. But I will miss you.
Thank you. I'm too weak to manage it, and I'm not sure that happiness fits into the plan. I see suicide as more a means to transition to
something pure, and outside the bounds of happy/sad. Actually, I strongly believe that suicide should only be entered into in a moment of
exhileration and joy, and to die under other circumstances will only spoil ones future.
Anyhow, I managed something fairly drastic. I e-mailed one of my profs, explaining my situation, and started the ball rolling. I'm
going to be heading back into therapy - not that it helps in the fundementals (I know this is misspelled damnit), but at least I'll have a
real human who is paid to listen, which I guess is important. Rather have someone with me who cares, but that ain't gonna happen anytime
soon.
esme, sorry about not noticing the PM (I don't check the e-mail account that I signed up with), but I was indeed tired.
Still haven't seen it actually. But hell, I don't mind blowing my shit out in the open.
EDIT: Err...for what it's worth, I don't see any PM options here. Anyone know how I can find them?
