If your wife isn't around Calandale, did she end up killing herself?
You don't have to answer and I know the above probably was a bit draining to write in the first place, so please forgive me if I'm asking a personal question.
I don't fucking know. I did visit her in the
hospital, and after she got out, I went back
to see her over the month long Christmas break.
Things didn't go too well at first, but began to
settle into some sad reflection of our time together.
Afterwards, I left with many unvoiced doubts. But
she seemed to put more and more into the thought
that we would be together, and invited me to visit
again for Easter/her b-day. During the interim, she
had decided to give up her job as an archaeologist,
and go off to school for repairing motorcycles. Just
one of the doubts that I had - she would neither
wait a bit, to see if I could get accepted for school
where she was living, or if something else seemed
wise.
Things continued pretty well, over the phone, until
I wrote her a letter, expressing my doubts. Her response
was swift and deadly, as one would expect from someone
like her: "that's it then." No compromise, no discussion, twas
over. I raged - wrote some letters that contained things that
were hurtful to her, and she pretty much cut all contact. It's
been a good year and half since I even got an e-mail from her.
Given the fact that both of my other LTR mates died within a
couple of years of losing me, I'm surprised that she lasted as
long as she did. But, I put some major wards over her, at one
time, in order to keep from harming her in my anger (a bit of
insanity creeping in here, but it's what I believe - and I have
a great deal of reason to do so). So, who knows? I suspect
that she had someone that she was interested in, when she
received my letter.
As a side note - not long after the "That's it" statement, she got
into a motorcycle accident. Nothing too major, but all par for the
course.
