Oh, Goldbachs conjecture will need to be solved by a team of the world best, if it is solvable by people at all. What you want is to become a god really isnt it. I have a similar problem, i have a need to be the undeniable best to settle, but i have some niches that look vaguely promising.
I wonder if the reason is simply to have a
good excuse for failure. But, sometimes I
really do feel that I get glimpses. I guess
the hope is that one of those would turn
something up which isn't too weak.
But yeah, less than the best seems unworthy
of pursuit. For THAT, I do owe my father the
blame, I fear. Not that he thinks that way,
but he managed to instill it in me.