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Offline Calandale

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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #105 on: April 26, 2007, 02:30:03 AM »
Wrote a big expo of my break-up on another site, so I figured I'd put it here, in case anyone is enough of a voyeur to be interested:

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Calandale, you've never really explained it (you don't have to if you don't want to), but how did your split with your wife happen?

I still don't understand it myself. We started growing more distant.
We ended up moving from a really nice apartment to a smaller,
less comfortable one, and things really deteriorated.

Our lives had become something of a granfalloon, but after the
move (which was into the neighborhood she grew up in), she
began hanging out with some old friends again. On the other hand,
I, who had probably been the more social of the two of us, in terms
of having contact with friends, had mostly lost contact with everyone
I knew (various means - mainly them moving out of the area). This
reversal didn't suit us well.

Along with this, I no longer had a safe retreat - really neither of
us did; the new place was just a bit too cramped. We both needed
a lot of time to ourselves. BUT, there had been the underlying distance
between us, as well. Anyhow, things started getting pretty bad, but I
never thought that we would crack - she was spending more and more
time away, and there were obvious problems. We tried fencing (something
we hadn't really done together since we first met), and she admitted wanting
to kill me. No huge deal that, but it was a pretty clear sign.

Then one day, she and I got in an argument about what was going on, and she
just decided that she couldn't handle it anymore. She made it clear that either I
had to leave, or she would. There was nothing to keep me in Buffalo, so I finally
decided to leave. The only thing that I could really get out of her, was that she
was losing her mind, and couldn't afford to go crazy. It's funny, I tried to convince
her to go on a Bonny and Clyde type of spree. Would have been a kick, and I wouldn't
have lost her.

It was probably tougher on her, than it was on me. I was absolutely devastated,
but over the next couple of years, she made a couple of serious suicide attempts.
She pretty much went crazy anyhow.

After we were separated for a little over a year, I had to bail her out of the psych
center (she had tried ODing on sleeping pills). It looked like things were going to
be alright between us, but a number of concerns haunted me. When I expressed
them to her, that was pretty much the end of that. Some harsh words ensued, and
after a few months, she cut all contact. I have no fucking idea if she's alive or dead
(probably dead, given my past history). I still love her, and miss the hell out of her,
but, like when I expressed my concerns, I'm just not positive that we would
work out together anymore.
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #106 on: April 26, 2007, 02:35:27 AM »
How about a twenty-words-or-less on that? :P
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #107 on: April 26, 2007, 02:36:26 AM »
Quote from: odeon on April 26, 2007, 02:35:27 AM
How about a twenty-words-or-less on that? :P

Nah. I gave the condensed version already.
Just didn't want to waste all that angst in
just one spot.
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #108 on: April 26, 2007, 07:19:24 AM »
happy belated birthday, calandale.

40, huh?

is that why you were so depressed last week?

did you do anything to celebrate?
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #109 on: April 26, 2007, 06:43:04 PM »
Nah. I get pretty depressive every spring.
Last year it ran through August.

Didn't celebrate - just work and postwhoring.
 Just got a package of
toys from my mom, but I don't really have time to
open/look at them. Should be some cookies in there.
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #110 on: April 26, 2007, 07:39:37 PM »
what is your favourite cookie?
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #111 on: April 26, 2007, 07:42:14 PM »
Crescents. Made with butter and pecans, dipped in powdered sugar.

My wife actually learned to make them
even better than my mom's. Eh, at least
my mom's good for something now.
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #112 on: May 28, 2007, 11:36:36 PM »
 :bird:

I'm so happy. Thanks, whomever gave me this!
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #113 on: January 15, 2008, 08:39:08 PM »
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #114 on: January 15, 2008, 08:46:08 PM »
Should we expect more vids from you now
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #115 on: January 15, 2008, 08:47:19 PM »
Probably.

Fucking pain in the ass uploading them
though.
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #116 on: January 15, 2008, 08:49:16 PM »
Slow connection on uploading?
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #117 on: January 15, 2008, 08:57:47 PM »
Yeah. Slower than I expected.
Probably I'm just spoiled with the
amount of bandwidth I had, when
classes weren't in session.  :-\
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #118 on: January 15, 2008, 11:04:21 PM »
Hi! Interesting, being able to hear your voice.
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Re: CHIRP!
« Reply #119 on: January 15, 2008, 11:06:06 PM »
Quote from: Karamazovna on January 15, 2008, 11:04:21 PM
Hi! Interesting, being able to hear your voice.

 :agreed:

You have a nice voice.
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