I've been trying to get my mind arounnd this harrshness alll afternoon. Yesuerkay, one of the senior mid -level supervisory members was shitcannned. (yeah, told to go home and mope, just as the Season Of Joy begins)
his job was asssigned to me at four Am this mourning. I was wide awake, but still in exercise mode, stimming on my tiptoes. My brain was elsewhere when I came to know this and could not respond in my best way .
I have had no training, whatsoever. i do not even know what all he was responsible for "staying ahead of," FFS. I am starting tommorrow morning as a sup. It means an email address, full time hours, access to company systems from which i was blocked, beffore and a raise (shit!?! it means more than double my pay scale if I can do the job through the ninety day provisional period.)
I feel bad for the guy, but more money and more work time is what I have asked for since the beginning.
I did not want this to be attained due to a ruthless sweep past another's achievements, drawing a kind of zero sum result.
I want this, but it feels fucked up, right now.
sometimes I really hate success.
Do you know why he was fired?
Congratulations, anyway.
The lucre tendered to me included no such bonus as knowing why nor did its dowry hold an invitation to ask, so I have not.
I did my regular job for the first hour, then spent the rest of the day in front of the computer taking an e-course and testing. So far, I have not missed a single question. My score is still one hundred per cent. It seems stupid to me, this way. You read forty or fifty pages of stuff then, immediately take a test on what you read. FFS, I don't even have to read it to pass when they do it this way. I can just match recent word pictures in my mind and get a passing score.
I am not doing that, though. I am studiously and comprehensively delving deeply into what I am supposed to be learning and taking notes of links I now will use. My intention is become term fluent and overstep the challenge of my new job. I willl own this.
My pay scale increased by three dollars per hour at the start of the day. If I can do this new job, my family will be quite well off, fiscally, and I can stop taking my semi-annual retirement dividends again and leave it all there to grow for the future.
I could not have hoped for this level of success so quickly. Thanks for the congrats, Callaway.
It still feels strange to have this kind of thing happen for me.