I've been trying to get my mind arounnd this harrshness alll afternoon. Yesuerkay, one of the senior mid -level supervisory members was shitcannned. (yeah, told to go home and mope, just as the Season Of Joy begins)
his job was asssigned to me at four Am this mourning. I was wide awake, but still in exercise mode, stimming on my tiptoes. My brain was elsewhere when I came to know this and could not respond in my best way .
I have had no training, whatsoever. i do not even know what all he was responsible for "staying ahead of," FFS. I am starting tommorrow morning as a sup. It means an email address, full time hours, access to company systems from which i was blocked, beffore and a raise (shit!?! it means more than double my pay scale if I can do the job through the ninety day provisional period.)
I feel bad for the guy, but more money and more work time is what I have asked for since the beginning.
I did not want this to be attained due to a ruthless sweep past another's achievements, drawing a kind of zero sum result.
I want this, but it feels fucked up, right now.
sometimes I really hate success.