It's just been so God Damn long since I felt like I was worth anything
You don't understand. I have been broken and I am rebuilding, little by little.
Three years ago, when I lost my job and tried to find work again, blah, blah, blah, et cetera, et cetera, and nothing worked out. I was feeling somewhat defeated. I am recovering, now.
That's part of why I ain't bitrchin' ...