Not sure how eloquently I can put this, but, BITCH!!!!
I will NOT feel guilty for being alive - NOT EVER! but, there are some who I feel for today, who have lost their most precious love.
... their eldest child ...
I can not even begin to identify with the pain they suffer.
Nah, this "Ain't my first barbeque, folks" I have seen six people, on three different occasions, shot or stabbed dead before my own eyes, but to lose a son is the worst thing I can imagine - I am at my brother, my youngest brother -in-law, and now the best friend of the fasmily who stood up with me at my wedding - all have lost their eldest sons, tragically.
It was a decent funeral, today.
I can not find a way to feel, except distant, thank the gods.