emo is an enigma.
someone once called Embrace emo, i thought that was totally not true. Embrace is not an emo band, they just make good music, is that a crime?
i could probably better explain my thoughts on emo if i was still taking brainpower pills.
i guess emo to me is dwelling in negativity and self-pity instead of trying to see the good in things and trying to make things better and to stay positive.
i guess i used to dwell like that, i couldn't see a reason to keep trying because i figured that we were all just floating on a polluted ball full of sick suffering stupid people in an empty and cruel universe that had no reasonable purpose, so i whined a lot out of frustration and boredom. i was basically going crazy because i didn't feel i had any purpose. i was desperately trying to figure out why it all sucked so much and if there could be a benevolent god despite it all, but i felt like i was just going around in circles. i dunno if that's emo or what, but i was really really whiney.
but i also appreciated it a little, the darkness. when you're in that pit you feel free'er, less afraid in a way because you have so little to lose, you have less hope so you have less to be disappointed by. and a twisted sense of humor is always a good companion.
only thing i would change about that part of my past would be the whining, people must have really thought i was annoying, though i was just trying to reach out and poke other people to look around and see what i saw, it confused me they were so oblivious or uncaring or unaffected by all the suckitude of existence, i felt so alone.
emo is just a word, in reality there are only people living life the best they know how, not one of us deserves judgement for what we do, cuz we only do stupid things when we are too blind to see a better way, but yet we judge, cuz we are too blind to see a better way.