Lol gopher, yeah right. Although at least we couldn't fit ours into a pencil sharpener, like the OP obviously has.
OP:
If your going to do that, and start fucking up your own kind, why not start with a really weak, pathetic victim, to give yourself some training. Since your pretty stupid and need it pointing out for you as to who, go look in a mirror and point at it.
As for what will I have left behind when I'm gone? well helping to pioneer a safer version of the Birch-Benkeser reduction that clandestine chemists could use to make meth, and avoid having to use dry ice/acetone baths or/and special condensers, plus a potential lot of risk, and also help, hopefully stop (in the US) non-bee cooks stealing anhydrous ammonia from farms, by helping to pioneer a variant whereby lithium is used as a fine suspension in anhydrous diethyl or diisopropyl ether, and this is gassed with a constant stream of GASEOUS anhydrous ammonia rather than condensing it down to a highly dangerous, cryogenic and corrosive liquid, to preform the lithium-ammonia complex and liberate solvated electrons. No, it isn't the notorious shake and bake (which is asking for a bomb going off in a cook's face, literally), but a non-pressurized variant of the Birch reduction. It works, its more convenient to set up, and its an awful lot safer than handling anhydrous liquid ammonia.,
Or...hm....how about helping, after a little inspiration, to pioneer a microwave-assisted synthesis of 1-phenyl-2-(beta-nitro)propenes from benzaldehydes that cuts the needed reaction time from 6-7 hours right down to 20-30 minutes, and produces considerably less byproducts and less wastage of precursors?
Or a novel clandestine opioid, that has an analog one can even use for two purposes, one way being a propionylated variant of this particular piperazine based opioid agonist, and the other to use the propionylated intermediate in a reaction with benzoic anhydride or benzoyl chloride and a sacrificial base, to produce the AMPAkine nootropic (thats learning and memory enhancer, since you are obviously a moron in need of something of that sort) DM-235. Two, potentially three birds with one stone, depending on how practical decarboxylation of N1-propionylpiperazinium hydrochloride goes compared to N1-formylpiperazine.
Lets see....being the first human being I've been able to find reference to ever bioassaying alpha-chloromorphide, the intermediate to desomorphine.
Probably saved somebody's life, once, after a suicide attempt. After running a good few miles without stopping to guide the paramedics to somebody and point them out. She might not have been very pleased with me for it, but still, did a good thing by saving her life.
And hey you should be thanking me personally for your time in this world, after all, somebody had to have it away with your mother. (partial thanks go to the Durex company too in your case, for their defective product)
Lol...can't even be a proper fuckup...how sad. I blame your mother's genes though, mine are good enough. I blame the sheer potency of the shittiness which can be ascribed to your mother's genetic code, for that unfortunate happening. I guess since she was lying up the stairs whilst I bummed her much of my jizz must have ended up falling out of that slack chasm that passes for an arse in a creature such as your mother. Silly little boy, your wasting your time here. If your going to kill yourself just go for it and stop whining. Surely even you can manage to hold a kitchen knife, a screwdriver, or a broken bottle to your neck and whack it with a hammer. Afterall you obviously have the use of at least one of your hands, since you have typed posts here. Thats enough hands to use to kill yourself. And you really are stupid if you talk about killing yourself 'if you could look after yourself properly'
That kinda goes against the entire point of killing yourself dumbass.
As for your last comment, you really shouldn't talk about your mother like that. Thats our job yeh daft arsed dollop of sewage.