Maybe.
As for whether to be concerned about my death ideation, sometimes yes. It's so much more than not having a relationship though, that's nothing.
I speak very clearly to my mother, repeatedly, and she acts as if I haven't said anything, e.g, "But that wasn't a proper no", "I didn't hear you", "But I don't understand what you're saying".
I finally got it out of her this afternoon this time around, that she was afraid to tell me the truth for fear of upsetting me. I had to guess it all out in my mind and calmly tell her, "I was being unreasonable. Yes, I was being very unreasonable. Now, can you please tell me why?"
I wish I didn't have to guess and go around all sorts of steps to work out how to find the truth. Instead she'll go along with what I say and then "forget" the entire point, no matter how simple it is.
FTR, she does the same to her partner, and he shouts at her. It's weird. It's like some OCD symptom or something, like she has to do it. Same with her asking the same questions repeatedly. I know she buys everything in twos and her excuse for that is "having a spare".
I keep having to talk to her because it's about my living situation. It feels like life and death to me.