Kick yourself in the ass! (In a GOOD way!)

['andersom']

  Weeble, weeble, the fuck is wrong with you?  You can see the dust and dirt starting to accumulate.
   Remember, to you it looks clean in here.  To most other people, it would look like a filthy hovel. 

Weeble Weeble, are you trying to cultivate a new type of anxiety? Or a new shape for your OCD?
To you it looks clean, to most other people it will look clean. If you mop your floors once a week it is OK. Nothing horrible will happen.

["couldbecousin"]

  Weeble, weeble, the fuck is wrong with you?  You can see the dust and dirt starting to accumulate.
   Remember, to you it looks clean in here.  To most other people, it would look like a filthy hovel. 

Weeble Weeble, are you trying to cultivate a new type of anxiety? Or a new shape for your OCD?
To you it looks clean, to most other people it will look clean. If you mop your floors once a week it is OK. Nothing horrible will happen.

  I know.  I'm just trying to avoid having to start all over again with my former level of dirt. 

['andersom']

  Weeble, weeble, the fuck is wrong with you?  You can see the dust and dirt starting to accumulate.
   Remember, to you it looks clean in here.  To most other people, it would look like a filthy hovel. 

Weeble Weeble, are you trying to cultivate a new type of anxiety? Or a new shape for your OCD?
To you it looks clean, to most other people it will look clean. If you mop your floors once a week it is OK. Nothing horrible will happen.

  I know.  I'm just trying to avoid having to start all over again with my former level of dirt. 

So, build a routine, without going the anxiety or OCD route.
You don't want to have to go through exposure therapy in a few years.

["couldbecousin"]

  I don't think I'm making the OCD worse, just using it for good.  I've already gotten it through
  my head that most of the food I eat, whether it comes from a field or a warehouse, has probably been
  exposed to rodent waste at some point.  So I wash the food, or wipe the can before opening.  I'm
  healthy at this point, I've never been sick despite having mouse presence at very close range at home.
  I just want to do everything I can to keep the little punters from getting too comfortable. 

["couldbecousin"]

  You don't seem to understand that you have to keep moving forward.  There is no point
  at which you're completely done learning and getting better, except the moment you die. 

["couldbecousin"]

  This song is really motivational and I never realized before today! 

     

['andersom']

Aaah, feeling young again, just by seeing the title.
Hearing it is even better.

The early Big Country albums are great.

["couldbecousin"]

  "You need a new mission impossible, a new windmill to tilt at!"

                         

  "A totally new life, a new version of yourself, you can almost see it through the mist ..."

["couldbecousin"]

  "After this one song, that's it!  Get off your ass, as your father would have said!"   

["couldbecousin"]

  "OK, so you'll probably never be a self-starter.  So find some kind of external incentive.
   And FFS do it before you're a toothless 65-year-old wreck!  This downward trend is unacceptable!" 

[Trigger 11]

I could use some motivation, but I am not able to really see more than a few days ahead it seems anymore. Every so often, I get super-motivated to make some progress on certain things, but often lack the physical strength or stamina to see things through. And the times that I push through, like two months ago, I end up with a prolonged episode with my back. I feel so defeated, I just can't mentally get through that imaginary wall blocking my progress. I wish I had the strength to kick myself in the ass. This is why I really wish I had someone in my life to help and motivate me. My minions certainly keep me going, but a lot of that is to make sure they are happy and taken care...often at my expense. And there is no way I can tell them certain things and put that on them to worry and fret about.

['andersom']

  "You need a new mission impossible, a new windmill to tilt at!"

                         

  "A totally new life, a new version of yourself, you can almost see it through the mist ..."

Save up for a windmill tour. And start studying the ones in the Netherlands. You can stay over at my place. I'll cook you a nice dinner.

["couldbecousin"]

  Dinner at the cow's house    would be a lot of fun.

["couldbecousin"]

  "One more song, then get up, set that kitchen timer for eight minutes, and get moving
  with what needs to be done.  Vacation is almost over.  Gear up for the battles of the workday!" 

[odeon]

You did GOOD!