THE INTRODUCTION: by DriftingBlizzard

[driftingblizzard]

I'm not really good with names, I wouldn't know who to guess.  I'll make one more stab at it though  Jennifer Aniston?  Please don't kill me.  I'm quite moviestar illiterate.

[driftingblizzard]

Aaron sits patietly tapping fingers on desk top.  Homemade desktop.   Too bored to type dots.

[El]

Nah, it's actually me, and not manipped much, just washed out.  I was just wondering what celeb I look most like.

[McGiver]

Nah, it's actually me, and not manipped much, just washed out.  I was just wondering what celeb I look most like.

you look like a stringy haired alanis morrisette!

[driftingblizzard]

I'm so happy, my neighbor was SOO like, that's not her, that's Jennifer Gardner, telling me I was so gullible.  I think he believes real people can't be that good looking.

[El]

Nah, it's actually me, and not manipped much, just washed out.  I was just wondering what celeb I look most like.

you look like a stringy haired alanis morrisette!

+ for that, you wonderful kissass.

[driftingblizzard]

I'm the best...  but you (actually your parents) made that very easy.  You should see how hard it is for me when it comes to my MIL.  We actually took a day trip together.  And I just said everything that seemed to go against what I wanted to say, and she loved it~!

[McGiver]

Nah, it's actually me, and not manipped much, just washed out.  I was just wondering what celeb I look most like.

you look like a stringy haired alanis morrisette!

+ for that, you wonderful kissass.

+1 for seeing through me.

still, you look hawt in that picture.

[driftingblizzard]

Guess which ONE of the following is NOT true:

I already have 3 friends on IxI.
I hate introducing myself.
My last name is Blizzard.
I have 8 siblings.
I'm the only one of my sibliings with AS.
My mother is of Irish Descent.
My father is of English Descent.
My NickName is Double A.
I have a lighted Keyboard.
I am proficient with a pistol, shotgun and assault rifle.
I have captained my own sailboat.
I have lived on the Atlantic Coast, the Pacific Coast and in the Mid West.  And in the South.
I am a certified Scuba Diver.
Blue is my favorite color.
I speak 3 languages fluently.
I've seen two people as they died.
I've been married twice without dating either one.
I think this sounds like a highschooler talking.
I'm a proficient rum drinker.
I work at a nuclear facility and sometimes play with radioactive material.
I own a jet boat.
I am a male.
I am 4.4 decades in age.
I hope this is the beginers' board.
Until the 12th grade, I thought squinting was required during eye exams .
I got my first pair of glasses in the 12th grade.
I think all Europeans sound smart no matter what they are saying because of their accent.
I have never piloted an airplane.
I was a virgin until the first time I got laid.
I have friends in Romaina, Russia, Hungary, Belarus and Ireland. (Although they technically may not currently be in those countries.)
I still have all of my fingers and toes.
I know what the ultimate question to the ultimate answer of 42 is.
I'm getting up now to freshen my drink.
I miss understand 80% of what people think should be easy for me to understand.
I believe I should have numbered these.
I believe this list is too effing long.
I don't really like internet slang.
I think crazy bitch is a very good poet.
I made my own computer table.
My computer table looks suprising nice.
I tend to ramble when I'm nervous.
I like brunettes.
I want to marry a girl with AS.
I'm really getting up now to freshen that drink.

I have to modify this list and delete the statement about wanting to marry a girl with AS.  Because I think it to be true rather than KNOWING it to be true.  I think I wrote more along the lines of being with someone who is accepting of me and maybe I thought a girl with AS would be that person.  But I don't know that to be true so I must delete it.  Now, to work on the relationship that I am in so that the true statement wouldn't mean deconstructing and rebuilding a life which is actually quite good!  Contrary to what people might think by reading my anti-philosophy forum thread...

Nothing personal against girls with AS, quite the opposite.  Although my knee is aching so a storm must be brewing somewhere!?

[driftingblizzard]

driftingblizzard You have some cool posts.

I think that was very nice of you to say, sometimes I think I'm the only one that thinks so.  It means a lot that someone noticed.  Thanks, Kevv.

[driftingblizzard]

I currently have the feeling of anxiety.

[McGiver]

I currently have the feeling of anxiety.

explain your feeling.

i get feelings of extreme excitememnt.  othertimes i feel extremely nervous.

[driftingblizzard]

I currently have the feeling of anxiety.

explain your feeling.

i get feelings of extreme excitememnt.  othertimes i feel extremely nervous.

My boss just told me to go to Conneticut Monday.  For 3 days.  And gave me a street address to find.   A 6.5 hour drive.  But that's just the last piece of it.   I was making a list of things I want to do in the next 15 years.  But that's not really it either.  I think its just that too many things have changed on me lately.  And I keep up with it all, the people, situations, the decisions, but then when it all slows down, like right now, it kinda all just hits at once.   And I start to question my reality and how long it will all last. 

I think it has to also do with looking back on my past too much in too short of a period.  Someone at work just looked through a photo booklet of my family, so I had to talk about each one, and I don't really like going over old stories so much.

So, that's about it, past, present, future, all to quick together.  Last night it was almost too much of a lighthearted feeling.....  I'm not quite sure of why my mood changes like that.  I'm still trying to figure it all out.

[Callaway]

http://www.mapquest.com/

You can put in your address that you have to find and it can give you driving directions to the place in Connecticut.

[driftingblizzard]

http://www.mapquest.com/

You can put in your address that you have to find and it can give you driving directions to the place in Connecticut.

Thanks Callaway.  I was told, "just get on 95 and go North"...

But I've been practicing with being ok while getting lost.  I recently drove through Rochester without even looking at a map just to see if I'd make it out.  I got out.  It took awhile.

But philsophocally, being OK seems to have to do with not caring, at least for me.  So if I don't care too much I'm more OK.  But what about the topics that I really care about.  I think that's where the anxiety kicks into high gear at times....