Not sure if you are being serious or not...I'm assuming you are in which case, stick around it gets better if you are willing to make changes in your life...
You have to want to make them is the key, I won't coddle coddle you and inform you otherwise...
I know what it feels like to want to end one's life (mine) thank God (literately) I didn't...
I've survived through on-line bullying and real life bullying to the point of hazing...
got off the net for about seven months and got some help for many things, one of which was self injury...
I'm a happier more joyful person to be around..
.I'd take you out to coffee or tea which ever if I met you in the real world and hug you...imagine that, and Autie who hugs You choose to remain the victim and not learn from what is going on IE. reaching out for help or become victorious over whatever life throws at you...
With all this said...
welcome to the madness of I2...
enjoy your stay