It does not seem logical to me to take a med because I am tired or something like that. If I feel tense I can picture something relaxing, like what it felt like to be a good mood, that dinner I already cooked, or something like that. The point is, I am in controll.
As for the clothes, yes my house is a mess, and I can tollerate alot of bullshit. My sister left the garage a mess, soap scum in the bathroom, and my nephew's room a mess. The yard is a mess to, and that is also not my fault. This leaves me less motivated to clean the house, but still I do some cleaning after I eat. Yesterday I did buy a mop, some cleaner for the kitchen floor, and some carpet cleaner. As you can see I do want to clean it up and it does bother me.
As for Modeling, they want only women right now, but they said they would call me back if a man project came up. The one who is helping me with my portfolio is lost. I have called her back numerous times and got no answer. I guess she is on vacation or something like that.