Okay so I couldn't stay away for long. Doing a hell of a lot better than I was when I exited...lets just say I was very close to checking myself into a hospital, but decided against it because I hate drugs and didn't want to be doped up. I think I will ask my therapist what he thinks. I am like....very delicately sane....but worried anything could set me off again.
I am pretty sure my chemistry got all fudged up....perpetual shock and survival mode. I think my body was trying to prevent an onset of deep depression by putting me in a continuos state of high adrenalin. WOuldn't that be funny if my body reacted against depression, like an immunity thing?
Sucks being spazzy sometimes :/
That quote was September last year....
Same experience is occurring right now actually. Last year it scared me because it generally happens around november...I've always just associated changing weather and school schedules with it....but then it happened so early in the year--then a friend told me its natural and that a long time ago most natives experienced it because it told them to hurry up and get ready for winter... He then added that the insects and other animals were also preparing early so he was anticipating a particularly cold winter.
And boy was it a cold winter.
This year apparently we are also going to have a very cold, crazy winter if my "survival mode" is any indicator...and also if this recently photographed black bear is any indicator
So, no not leaving. Just telling reacting to the changing seasons... :/
