Cynara, I urge you to read this post entirely. Skyblue1 is a 63 year old grown man. A grown man who professes to be mature.
I am 33. I am immature , but I am fair and honest and I have an OCD need to always be truthful.
Sky blue1 never ever ever spoke of being suicidal or attempting suicide. In fact, he was always critical of people who are depressed. He made mostly passiv e aggressive digs at the whiny enos on support forum on AFF. But I guess his claiming to be suicidal absolves him of this.
In 1999, the night before my 20th birthday, I took roughly 38 to 40 aspirin in a suicide attempt. I had my stomach pumped. They put a tube through my nose down into my stomach. It was the lowest point of my life at that time. They gave me charcoal and I had solid black diarrhea. I didn't realize that it wasn't supposed to do that. I was so upset I felt I deserved the abdominal pains that came with my diarrhea. They gave me medication for it. I felt the tube in my nose and in my throat still there a full week after leaving the hospital.
Years later in 2009, I had health issues and was unable to be mobile because my stitches were healing. I became severely depressed and as the physical wore of it was replaced by emotionaal anguish. Not to mention a "friend" betrayed me and I was hurting from it. I was playing an online game because I could barely move without stretching my stitches. My cat of 17 years went missing around that time. She was the closest thing to a sibling I had. I grew up with her. This was around the time Michael Jackson died. To this day I still have nightmares where I am trying to find her. On the game I was taken advantage of and bullied, having stuff I worked hard for stolen from me. One individual who knew I was suicidal told me to "take my pill and hang myself". I didn't. I didn't kill myself out of spite. I wanted to take away his power. He trolled me and two others. But I decided not to listen to him. It was my choice.
Skyblue1 is older than my own father. He proclaims to be tough and not be whiny. He criticizes me indirectly for this. But now our resident silverback is suicidal. And it is my fault. Because I am responsible for the actions of a grown man 30 years my senior. A grown man who lied and slandered me, yet I am immature and responsible. Can you see how this view is biased? He deleted the incriminating posts. And you choose to get angry with me? He holds grudges too but it is "acceptable" when he does it. I have every right to be angry. I wasz lied to. I was treated unfairly. And now he trolls me. He made nasty comments about my mommy. But I am to blame, aren't I? Your logic is flawed.
