Took Xanax for the first time since my Mum died. Preemptively tried to make an appiontment with my psych whom I'm not supposed to see for another 6-8 weeks. Looked into counselling under the Federal Employ EEO system. Began putting together the evidence to support the claims I may be forced to report. Garned some supportfrom colleagues who agree with my plight and have gone through similar issues. Crie a little at how frustrating it is to have my belief system belittled and passed off as just me being psycho.