Did you find something really cool while you were out?
Not really. THAT wouldn't have shocked me this way.
I think I started to realize that I am fairly content, AND
there is no great pressing fear in the future.
Hell, even with my wife, I knew that we'd have to
move so she could go to grad school, and that everything
would sharply change, in an ugly manner. Here, I have
to worry about getting really hired, but I think that's going
to happen. If not, not. I can always find another job as good.
Pretty much, any changes that I see look to be improvements,
and nothing is terribly wrong. Yeah, I get lonely, but I'm used
to that - I almost seem to aim for it.