This will sound truly pathetic to you, but the i2 of april 2010 is my ideal of how an internet forum should be. Its the only forum Ive ever used, and the only one Ive wanted to, not including Zomg or s2. The more the site gets less like it was then, the more frustrated I get with it.
Not that pathetic.
But, the site is alive, it changes, and will keep on changing.
Hope you can let the ideal image be a good memory, and be able to see what good there is now in this place. And, also what is lousy of course. It isn't what it was in 2010. You are not what you were in 2010. Even if a miracle could change this place back to what it was then, it would not be the same, because you have changed.
Ive thought about that dilemma a few times. I know that I should leave this site while its still a great memory. Remember it as the place that helped me through the hardest time of my adult life, and be glad that I was here through the "golden years" 
Other times, I just want to come back and try and make the site be good again 
And if it isnt going to be good again, then it needs 
I know what I should do, but I just know that every so often Im gonna do the stupid thing
It will never be what it was back then.
You were at a mess stage in your life, and you came on a site where you felt recognised and welcome.
I had that when I joined AFF. When I go there now, to have a look, I can see it can provide a similar relief as it did for me then, but, I have changed. And, I have my own reasons to not try it again there.
You will not be in that way you were when you joined here again.
This place is what it is now. It will be different in a few months, and different a few months after that too.
If you can let go the longing for back then, then you may find this place your place again. Never the fierce way it was before.
The feeling of I2 for you in 2010 was there, because of the way you were in life. And, you don't want to go back there I hope.
Maybe I2 then was what you needed then, and that was it. Then it can be something you can look back on with a smile, of a good thing, that passed, but was there.
Maybe it will be something for you again. But, it never ever will be what it was again, and trying to go back to the good old days is not going to work. They are gone. Time does pass. Things can be gone for ever.
Maybe in this youth can make a difference. The oldies have had to come to accept that change will happen, and that longing for times past, when everything was better, is useless.
