Calandale, I would prefer that we move this conversation (assuming there is anymore to it) to here, because I feel a bit guilty continuing to spam up Renaeden's thread.
I am saying that I have managed to "create" a face/facade that keeps me safe, in many ways. People look away, quite often, instead of engaging me. You see it here as well. I consider it to be a sign that I am indeed as unimportant and ineffecive as I already feel.
You know, to a large extent, it's because you've ASKED
to be left alone.
Huh?
I've asked not to be arse-licked, as Dunc put it.
Anyway that's a different issue. I was mainly talking about RL interactions.
Irrelevance is an effective shield, apparently.
Wait a minute.
You think I am here because I want to be left alone?
Are there others who think this?
WTF!!!
I thought you wanted to be left alone. In one of my interpretations of reality, you are a person I have tried most ways I can think of to approach, and finally backed away from, thinking I had little of value to offer, and that which I thought might be valued, was a type of attention you didn't like.
In other interpretations of reality I'm nowhere near that insecure.
*attempts to sigh in a masculine way, can't quite*
I thought you were the stand-offish one.
Anyway, I pour my guts all over the place, kind of freely at times. There is very little left for the curious or to approach or to step in or to be embarrassed about, since I find exposing some of my embarrassments and failures to be therapeutic in some ways.
Wait a minute.
You think I am here because I want to be left alone?
Are there others who think this?
WTF!!!
Not exactly, but that you have more
boundaries, at times.
I'm still not getting you.
You think I have more boundaries at certain times than at other times? That is true of almost everyone, I think. Yourself included, possibly.
... or are you saying that I have "more boundaries" than other people in general at (certain) times? Again, that statement is a little vague in my mind and quite possibly true of everyone.
Maybe I don't know what kind of "boundaries" it is to which you are refer. Considering that there is quite a bit of my personal life strewn over these pages, I feel as if I have opened floodgates, mostly, especially if you compare how much I have posted about myself in comparison to how much most others post about themselves.
The only boundary that I can think of specifically asking people to respect is that I don't care to have a bunch of people gang up to tell me how cool (or what ever) I am. I become overloaded quickly when that happens. I don't mind a little grabass when I post a fractal that catches someone's eye, or when I bragged about outselling the rest of the department in computers a couple of weeks ago, but those things are separate from me.
I have very few personal boundaries to conversation, among my "friends."
Is that difficult to understand?
