Depression's Got A Hold Of Me

[Pig]

I've been feeling pretty depressed these last couple of days.  When I get too depressed I tend to eat more, masturbate more, fantasize about torture & suicide, take extra medication, become lethargic, and isolate myself.  Lately I've also tried blasting sound from as many sources as I can (at least 5) to make a cacophonous barrage of indecipherable noise.  I saw it in the Roky Erickson documentary.  It helps mute your thoughts to an extent.

So yeh, none of this stuff really works.  What do you do when you feel depressed?  How do you cope?

[Parts]

I tend to start a project making or fixing things if all else fails I get a big fire going out in the back yard.  Fire is always good in a bad mood have a fire in a good mood have a fire.  Fire is good

[Pig]

Yeh, I feel terrible.  So so bad.  I hate myself, I hate everything.  I need to leave.  I can't be here anymore.

[Pyraxis]

I used to do the blasting sound thing. Get as many cacaphonous angry songs going as possible, simultaneously, or open a bunch of instances of youtube vids of one song just precisely out of sync with each other.

[Adam]

Angry songs help me too, only I don't blast music anymore as it pisses off other people inmy house lol. But going for a walk, while listening to them on my ipod helps. especially as it's combined with the walking. except in hot weather. in hot weather, there is no treatment for shitty feeling - you just have to wait it out til autumn

[ZEGH8578]

i havent been depressed 5-6 years
but yes, angry music used to be a good outlet for me

[Zippo]

i havent been depressed 5-6 years
but yes, angry music used to be a good outlet for me

what zegh said. angry music.
i turn my depression into anger focused inwards. and turn that into a will to be better than myself.

[Queen Victoria]

Just don't do what Prince Albert did about depression.  His philosophy was to hit bottom as fast as you can so you can get rid of the depression

One day he was feeling depressed, so he called this girl/woman he had one date with 9 months before.  He'd asked her if she'd like to go out again and she said yes.  Well, he didn't call until that day, expecting to be cursed out, the phone slammed in his ear, etc.  Well, when he asked her out she said okay. So, his philosophy backfired.

We were married less than 2 years later. 

[Pig]

Just don't do what Prince Albert did about depression.  His philosophy was to hit bottom as fast as you can so you can get rid of the depression

One day he was feeling depressed, so he called this girl/woman he had one date with 9 months before.  He'd asked her if she'd like to go out again and she said yes.  Well, he didn't call until that day, expecting to be cursed out, the phone slammed in his ear, etc.  Well, when he asked her out she said okay. So, his philosophy backfired.

We were married less than 2 years later.

I've spent my whole life depressed.  It's just flaring up badly because of this whole fake girlfriend fiasco. 

I've wanted to die since I was 7 years old.  No apparent cause to these feelings; just the way I am I guess.

[ZEGH8578]

Just don't do what Prince Albert did about depression.  His philosophy was to hit bottom as fast as you can so you can get rid of the depression

One day he was feeling depressed, so he called this girl/woman he had one date with 9 months before.  He'd asked her if she'd like to go out again and she said yes.  Well, he didn't call until that day, expecting to be cursed out, the phone slammed in his ear, etc.  Well, when he asked her out she said okay. So, his philosophy backfired.

We were married less than 2 years later.

I've spent my whole life depressed.  It's just flaring up badly because of this whole fake girlfriend fiasco. 

I've wanted to die since I was 7 years old.  No apparent cause to these feelings; just the way I am I guess.

theres always a cause. if there is no specific event or anything, there could be chemical imbalances in your brain, requiring stabilizing drugs.
dont take my word for it tho, especially since mucking w your mental chemistry can be very dangerous.
you should seek professional help. theres no reason why you should have to go around depressed forever...

['Butterflies']

I've been feeling pretty depressed these last couple of days.  When I get too depressed I tend to masturbate more

I don't suffer from depression at all, but when I do have a few depressing days, masturbation is the last thing I want to do.

I only fap when I'm happy







I always find that the best way to deal with feeling unhappy is to surround myself with my friends. I find it hard to feel depressed when I'm surrounded by other people. There is always too much going on when I'm around others to feel unhappy.
Being alone is the worst thing for me. That's when I've got time to think about the things that make me unhappy.

[Phallacy]

I know what it's like to be depressed most of the time. I just don't want to do anything.

[midlifeaspie]

That's sad.  I'll feel bad for you if that will help

[Queen Victoria]

[renaeden]

I don't think taking extra meds would help. Going by what you are taking. What helps me is to not sleep too much as that makes my depression worse. But I generally want to escape and sleep is a good way of doing that but it is not healthy. You could try keeping your day as busy as possible, schedule things to do and make a routine. I do a bit of artwork, well really it is just colouring in mandalas but it helps me because I have something to show in a short amount of time.

I wonder if you have told your psych you have wanted to die since you were 7 and all the rest of the things you have said on here. They can only help you if they know about you. So you could try and get an appointment soon or something. I don't know what other antidepressants you have tried but there is a lot out there and maybe you could try another. Prozac was pretty weak, in my experience.

I am thinking of you, anyway.