I haven't killed myself because I am still fighting.
why are you still fighting?
people advertise death as such a relief, but if it was so awesome, we'd all go snuff ourselves, just to get it out of the way, wouldnt we?
why drudge through life, for any reason? why bother? death is like a party.
im not so much sarcastic, as i am being rethorical.
here is what i am actually saying:
death is _not_ relief. you cannot possibly know. you can pretend you know. you can tell yourself. who told you death is relief?
hm? dead people?
most likely you heard it from culture, movies, songs, bullshitters.
death isnt relief.
relief is something you _can experience_
how would you appreciate peace and quiet, if you are dead?
nobody even stops to consider this.
you say you want your discomfort to stop. i totally get that. but listen to your own words:
in
this life, you want your problems to go away.
in other words:
you want a
life, without these particular problems.
and that is why you keep fighting.so...
a first step for everyone would be: stop fucking glorifying suicide. stop fucking bragging about it, and stop throwing it around like a casual greeting "hi, oh btw im gonna kill myself, i hate my life". not saying you did that specifically, but those attitudes are well abundant.
suicide isnt a sofa. its not a vacation. its not a painkiller.
for the 10th time, lets get some
perspective on things.as for you personally, deal with your problems. they may never go away completely, but when they diminish a bit, take notice and appreciate it - because you have perspective on things.